I work a lot and forget the world around me even exists at some points. Here we are at 5 am and I was suppose to be in the bed by 1 am. I have a few problems that I'll list:
1) Only computer I have that is powerfully enough to handle anything is in my exercise/computer room that everyone thinks I spend way too much time in.
2) My direction isn't clear. Picking up a book and trying to gasp all it's concepts may not be the best approach. Right now I'm trying to work my way through Android game development for beginners. Considered also using an engine like uility and or UDK since they allow me to get right into what I want to do which is design the game.
3) Getting stuck on a few concepts hurts. I'm the type of learner who will be completely lost about something until I get that click where everything comes together. Sometimes it is hard finding out what I'm lacking to make that click happen where it all joins.
4) Completely unrelated to programming but I have few problems with depression. When certain people in life get me down I find it hard to do things that I enjoy. I'm taking strides to get as close to over that as possible. Doing nothing at all has never made me happy so I have to stop resorting to that as a possible solution.
Getting started isn't my problem at all as is finding excuses to go work so I don't have appear rude. This is something I wish to and yea, it is taking a lot my time. For about 6 months I worked a contract job teaching kids about computer science. We explored games, websites and animation. I enjoyed it so much it was the only job where I would have been willing to pay to be allowed to go into work. I have a really hard time finding a balance between going around the clock to doing nothing at all.
That was the deepest second post I've ever made... anywhere.