1) Only computer I have that is powerfully enough to handle anything is in my exercise/computer room that everyone thinks I spend way too much time in.
That's not a problem, but rather a solution that you spend time in a computer room. I did the same in college when my laptop broke, and coded a game from the computer lab. Everyone else thought I did it for a homework.
2) My direction isn't clear. Picking up a book and trying to gasp all it's concepts may not be the best approach. Right now I'm trying to work my way through Android game development for beginners. Considered also using an engine like uility and or UDK since they allow me to get right into what I want to do which is design the game.
Having your own direction, and stick with it, is the best way to go. It doesn't hurt to try using a Unity engine or UDK, or anything. You may decide later if you like them or not. The most important point here is the fact that you decided to go that path yourself, rather than having somebody telling you to do it.
3) Getting stuck on a few concepts hurts. I'm the type of learner who will be completely lost about something until I get that click where everything comes together. Sometimes it is hard finding out what I'm lacking to make that click happen where it all joins.
That happens when you still learning things. It still happens even among pros. Don't let that deter you.
4) Completely unrelated to programming but I have few problems with depression. When certain people in life get me down I find it hard to do things that I enjoy. I'm taking strides to get as close to over that as possible. Doing nothing at all has never made me happy so I have to stop resorting to that as a possible solution.
Then, it is your responsiblity to seek a medical attention. FYI, everyone goes through depressions in their life. It's not a specifically your problem. Finding it hard to do things that you enjoy is exactly one of the symptomps of depressions.
Getting started isn't my problem at all as is finding excuses to go work so I don't have appear rude. This is something I wish to and yea, it is taking a lot my time. For about 6 months I worked a contract job teaching kids about computer science. We explored games, websites and animation. I enjoyed it so much it was the only job where I would have been willing to pay to be allowed to go into work. I have a really hard time finding a balance between going around the clock to doing nothing at all.
That was the deepest second post I've ever made... anywhere.
See, I don't think you are in as much of a bad shape as you think you are. From this post, what you experienced seems "normal" to me. You are learning, you are teaching, you earn money (though temporarily). A lot of other people can't even function at that level. When they go through depressions, they can't even get a job or learn anything.