I've overwhelmed myself again. I have that horrible tendency to pile on the obligation when I reach the top of the emotional wave. Though I've never been that good at organizing my life, so it shouldn't surprise me every time it happens. It just hits me like a wave, and demotivates me. I've gone a good 5 years without promising a single thing, never led people on. Be a shadow and I'll never dissapoint. What good that has done me. Now I try to break away from that, open up and try more. What good that has done. I can't seem to find that happy middle, something I can be comfortable with. Maybe I've just never been that comfortable with my own abilities.
I was told the other day to stop judging myself based on what others have done. Then what do I judge myself off of? It could be alot worse, but I've made so many enemies it's getting harder to be positive.