I've been wondering lately if a change of tac is neccessary. I appear to be getting burnt out in my current job, and have no real way of recovering from the problems that I am having here. It is really getting so bad that I sit in front of my computer for 8 hours a day, staring at the screen doing nothing. Strangely, I work from home, so it should be easy just switching to another project or even getting away from the computer. The main reason that I dont do this is that I feel guilty about doing 'non-work' stuff on their time, since they are paying me. (ok.. maybe I do jump into a game or something occasionaly, but I feel guilty the whole time.. promise.. :) )

I have decided that this will be the last job before I move on to either a) my own business, or b) a job in the game development industry. I have also decided that option B is out of the question, as I do not really wish to have the long hours / low pay associated with it. Option A would likely have just as long hours, but I would feel more rewarded by the additional time spent.

The death of our baby Scarlett has also weighed heavily on things here as well. It's coming up to her first birthday, and it's easy to see that prety much everything has returned to "normal". I can't effectively explain how this is affecting my work / burnout problems, except that I can't seem to shake the feeling that this "normal" is not right. I should be having a different normal at the moment, with waking in the middle of the night, and pram pushing, and noisy houses, etc.