- Random Observation of the Day
Sometimes, life just sucks.
EDIT: Taking Johnhattan's suggestion.
Just got an email from the girl that (I fear) I may still be in love with. Haven't heard from her in 4 months; and its been a year since I've seen her...
Still the same, nonchalent banter; what are you doing for Christmas, coming to visit? how's life? etc. *sigh* God...
For advice, I can say only this: If you love someone, and they love you in return, don't wait. Make something happen. Because, inevitably, they won't love you in the same way anymore; you'll just become another name on another list of people to send a yearly greeting to; while they will forever haunt your thoughts each and every night for the rest of your life.
(And why the fuck is there a single Christmas light on my desk...? Is this why that string of lights I threw out earlier today didn't work..? _dammit_)
Anyway, there's a couple wasted years of my life for ya - a balloon inflated to bursting, shoved into a vacuum, and burst... fated to spend the rest of its existance pondering the meaning of the past, and revelling in glory lost.
(The ultimate irony is, I now must go and compose an analytical essay discussing the effects of Free Will prescribed in Milton's Paradise Lost...)
In the words of Robin Williams, "The world needs a new drug, not ridilin, not valium, something better. We'll call it... 'fuckitall'."