I do have enough books that I can get started. Its just that I have been dabbling in this and that without much focus, therefore I dont have much to show (which I link with a lack of motivation to work on it). I am now going to build each component until its done rather then skipping from subject to subject...
I am starting to make a particle system. I am going to base it off of these sources...
http://www.drunkenhyena.com/pages/projects/d3d8/d3d_lesson9.php
https://www.gamedev.net/reference/articles/article1043.asp
http://www.gamasutra.com/features/20040728/latta_02.shtml
...on a brighter note, if I may, Welcome to Journal land..with traditional goodies +