Has anyone got a feeling of this when you were starting as game developer?

ouch · 2015-07-20T07:28:39

I did search on google for this one, but no matter how hard I try I cant seem to shake this feeling of cheating when I am going to use game engine. Like say for example I was learning UDK yesterday then suddenly I just got this feeling that "is this right?". I dunno I just feel like using game engine is kind of spoon feeding.( i know its kinda rude but please understand its just my opinion.). For all PROs out there. Did you feel this way when you were starting? How did you reason yourself with that when you sometimes feel like it was kind of cheating? Ive read some threads here and most people started making games without using game engine. Do you sometimes times think that a "real game developer" start from the scratch or use some sort of library like (XNA,SDL, SFML)?